what to do, where to go..

little munchkins

love these boys so much

So, not sure if anyone noticed, but I really have trouble finishing anything that I start, whether it be a diet, a book, a cleaning plan (ie 31 days to a clean house), or even a blog (cough, cough)
I just really struggle finishing things.
I kind of feel like I am struggling with a lot of things. I just feel weird. Off. Not myself. That dang country song is running through my head "I'm much too young to feel this d*mn old"
I am really struggling with being real with God. With being real with myself. There are a lot of days I don't like myself yet I cling to my old self with such tight hands. I don't even quite comprehend the new creation that I am supposed to be. Ugghh..I am feeling a little bit beat right now, and I don't even know why. I know I need some change in my life. I am just kind of feeling heavy about a lot of things.
This is pretty vague, I know. Just writin' what I'm feelin'.